welcome to my world

t-shirt on, check. Hair tied up, check. contacts out and glasses on, check. make-up off, check. Right, Im ready.
Sometimes i think about the bigger picture. I mean sitting in my big bedroom in my big house surrounded by expensive things seems so. Just so? I lack the word. Probably because no word has been invented yet to finish that sentence. Hopefully by the end of this 11.28pm (pour my heart out but manage to write loads of crap) piece, i will have thought of it.
Okay, so we listen to inspirational music and read inspirational quotes in the hope of actually becoming something, someone. Somebody. Anybody? Just to become or be someone that isnt yourself seems so amazing does it? But yet we wish for somebody elses life and forget the little things. Thats what im doing. Forgetting the little things.. Saying a sentence and watch my brother snap out a witty comment. Laugh till my belly aches at alan carr. Hugging my mum. Patting my dad's bald head on a morning and calling him ''Lord Farquaad''. Seeing the look on my mentally disabled but yet my beautifully articulated brothers face when he see's he's got Call of duty:Black opps for christmas. Staring at pictures? oh how i waste my time looking at pictures. But are we looking at something and remembering good things or just churning up bad things from the past? Okay, im going too deep now but seriously. Little things like that make the bad things seem irevicable. Totally unimportant. Merely a whisper a mile away from earshot. So how is it that I (including you and every other person in this world) have come to the conclusion that i still long to be somebody else? I mean what i wouldnt give to have angelina Jolie's lips or cheryl coles figure but truth is, Angelina Jolie was probably bullied for having big lips at school and now everyone loves her for them! And well cheryl was probably fat. Everyones fat at some point. Just sods law. Which brings me to another conclusion, anything that happens to you in school, highschool, college or whatever institution you attend, you will probably benefit from it later. I think..