maHOOOOsive apologies

basically, i started college and everything went tits up, stress, frustration, work, boyfriend, parents serious FML. But i shall give you another post in a day or two and explain, this was just a taster.

sorry xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

when life brings you to your knee's, your in the perfect position to pray.

i use to be the kid no-one cared about, you have to scream till they hear you out

want this dress!

Emma watson, if only i could look like her! But i recently saw this picture of her at Met Gala in New York and im completely smitten with her dress!

all started with the big bang!

if you've never watched the big bang theory, its time to start now.

*my mum walks in singing cheryl cole -fight for this love*

''hey mum, who sings that song?

''oh its cheryl cole!''

''yeah... lets keep it that way''

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Because the only thing we can do freely, the only thing we can do without consequence or for our own will, is breathe. That's the only right we have.

Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO MEEEE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO ME!

is it sad that i have this song going through my head? erm YES. But i could not care less as today i am a legal teen, legal to sex, legal to do lottery, and many other legal things! except alcohol, but... i can wait another 2 years, its fine.

I shall post some pictures of my presents later as my camera is out of charge soo yeah, i'll take pictures of them later:)

This kid made me LOL :')

teenagers

i wont sit down and i wont shut up and most of all i will not grow up

ah birthday soonish!

so some of you may have noticed that my profile says im 16 instead of 15, well its my birthday this friday and i thought id change it early incase i didnt get chance this week, or i just forget to haha. I've already had my party but since it wasn't my birthday on the day i didnt get any presents off my folks, which im okay with, i like the anticipation:) But i still have no clue what im getting, i think its just just be money, but i'll be chuffed to pieces if i get the greys anatomy box set i asked for but hey ho i could always buy it with my money that i get i suppose.

This blog brings me too a question for you lot, what is the all time bestest ever birthday present you've recieved? Whether it be a phone, book or make-up i wanna know. To start you off im gonna tell you my favourite birthday present which is when i turned 7 my parents booked a holiday to Disneyland, Paris, where i bought lots of princess dresses from cinderella, snow white, beauty and the beast ect ect, but my favourite was my pink sleeping beauty one, because well um.. it was PINK. hahaha, which was my favourite colour at the time, soo yeah.. tell me your fave pressies! Also on a related note, its my friends birthday coming up aswell, and he's a boy so i have no clue what to get him!? so if you have any suggestions on birthday gifts for teenage boys, feel free to post a comment and let me know, they will be very much appreciated:)

On a unrelated topic, my blog wont send me any updates on the blogs im following, as it says ''you are not following anyone'', which is a pain in the arse because its contradicting itself because i remembered a few people i was following and looked on their blogs to see if i still was, and i am still following them. So my blog is lying to me and telling me i have no updates so if i do not come up as a follower on your blog when you know i was, please let me know so i can re-follow everyone! thank you kindly:)

dance up on me pleaseee!

sooooo gotta see step up 3, i love watching films like this because it makes me want to dance, which is a bad idea considering i dance like a drunk grandma at a wedding. But still im taking the risk and im off to see this at the cinema's on friday with a few mates, if you havent seen the trailer yet click here.

Its also got the one of the same actors in it from step up 2, ''moose'', who's the cutest cutie pie ive ever seen and he makes me want to ruffle his hair :')

Also i cant forget one of the most sexiest dancers alive - playing a lead role in step up 3, Rick Malambri mmmmm GET IN MY BED. please? (must have a topless one of course - apologies for crap quality)

attempting to watch tv

If you look further down on my blog you see the post 'meow meow - how my cat woke me up this morning' and i posted a funny video to go with it and well ive fallen in LURVE with these vids as the cat on it is exactly like mine :') i showed my parents these videos and they couldn't stop laughing so this is what my cat is like when im watching tele - no joke, he's exactly like this.

spongebob

Found this old photo of me in my garden, this was when i first moved in and i was pretty overwhelmed so i took pictures of everything. I was 13 at the time - hence my 'i love spongebob squarepants' tee haha, but who's ever too old for spongebob? ;)

actually i kinda only posted this photo because of the t-shirt..

SPOILERS!

i typed in 'Greys anatomy - season 7' into google and it came up with tonnes of spoiler websites, and me being an impatient person and stubborn i clicked on these websites and found out the date of when the new season airs which is 23RD SEPTEMBER 2010 so yeah, im pretty excited! Also you need to write that date down, like now. get a pen and paper, and write that lovely date, you know you want to.. have you wrote it yet?! I DONT CARE IF YOUR PEN ISNT WORKING, GET ANOTHER. found one? now write it. thanks.

Also i found out theres going to be a new cast member and HE, yes its obviously a sexy sexy man doctor, his role name is 'Dr Andrew Perkins' ahhhhh feast your eyes ladies..

SEX APPEAAAAAAL nomnomnomnommmm...

Okay he's a slight ginger but i'll get over it, no offence to gingers out there its just a prefer a dark hair manly man ;) like........

McSteamy!! aka Dr Mark Sloan, he's been a cast member for years but i new you wanted to see him anyway ;)

meow meow

This is how my cat woke me up this morning.

nice surprises

today i came across my FIRST ever follower! Her name is Rae, which is such a delightful name because it reminds me of sunshine! which is lovely, also her blog reminded me of one of my favourite songs called 'Just Breathe' by Anna Nalick, i love love love this song, if you want to have a listen click here. Obviously your not obliged too so no hard feelings if you don't like it or anything.

In other news, ive managed to grow my nails! ah im so pleased! You see, when im bored i kinda' bite my nails without realising and my poor nails feel like rape victims. (That was a simile; my nails haven't been raped - don't worry.) Anyway my nails have grown and feel more womanly, 'cause typically girls are supposed to have long hair, long nails, smooth legs ect ect. So yeah i feel more to my species haha :)

Also ive had my daily fix of Greys Anatomy, i actually could never ever ever get bored of that program, even if its on repeat, i can watch it over and over again, i guess i just cant get away from McDreamy and McSteamy ;)

OH before i forget i watched Pursuit of Happyness for the gazilionth time yesterday and had to post this quote -

''dont ever let somebody tell you you cant do something, not even me. You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People cant do something themselves they wanna' tell you you cant do it. You want something, go get it. Period.''

party time!

hello everyone, very sorry for my recent ignorance (slaps face) to you devoted readers. Anyways would like to inform you of my 16th birthday party i had on monday which was amazing! Even though its not my birthday till august 6th i had to have my party early because i wanted to make sure all my friends could make it. (aren't i nice?!?!) anyway, it was going to be a small bbq get-together but it ended up a MASSIVE, music thumping, tonnes of food get-together, not what i expected but was much better! Crabby neighbours weren't so pleased but screw them, you only turn 16 once! In similar news there are alot of people turning 16 around this time so i went to my friend Natalie's 16th last saturday which was a blast aswell, so here are a few reminders of both my party and Natalies..

at my partaaaaaaaaaay

me and natalie at my partttty

me with lollipop at nat's house partaaay

me licking eddie's face at natalies.

me and eddie goooofing around at natalies!

In other news i went to see TOY STORY 3 today!! It was brilliant! I saw all the little kids in the cinema and thought to myself ''you weren't even alive when toy story came out....'' which is wierd when you think about it, because i can now imagine that the Toy Story Trilogy is going to be shown to my kids and my kids kids and go through generations as a classic! I guess it gives me excuse to watch it again and again..

Goa, India

In February 08 i went to India with my parents and my brother and basically i didnt have a blog back then sooo i thought i'd step into the time machine and take myself back there (not literally of course) and i found a few photos so ive decided to share a few with you since i like people to see my experiences so yeah.. Enjoy! :)

This is me on an Elephant, getting a wash.

With my dad in a Tuk Tuk - i call them Tut Tut's haha.

Me and my mum buying lots and lots of stuff from these wonderful Indian Women, who were really nice and the scarfs and jewellery were all hand made and gorgeous! Since its India everything was so cheap so me and my mum were in Heaven! :)

Me feeding the Elephants Banana's.

I saw this stray dog on the beach so i fed him cookies :)

my prom night

I had one of the best nights of my life! Everyone looked a million dollars, all the boys looked handsome and sexy in their suits, and the girls were in princess-like dresses, here are a couple of photos of me in my garden before the prom.

Here is one with my good friend Luke Wilkinson.

Here is one with me and my friend Liam Clegg, and then my bestfriends Danny and Leanne who are also the cutest couple in the world!

Overall it was a brilliant night with all my friends and teachers, we miss my highschool alot but im sure i'll visit when im older, i hope i can keep in touch with everyone, anyway hope you enjoy looking the pictures, if you want me to upload a few more for you just ask :)

different day, same old shit

a long lost friend told me the world is full of negativity, but i think if one person is positive, then the world can change, because the world has a butterfly effect, what is said by one person, is spoke by another whether it be an hour, a day, a month or a year later, we all say the same thing, something as simple as hello; even in different dialects we all speak the same, feel the same as one another, we a friend is sad, your sad. when a friend is happy, your happy their happy. Butterfly effect in the making.

hoping someone will speak my words

Marina

what now

everyday we grow, we learn everyday, whether it be taking first steps, learning to new words, because that goes on through your life. It never stops. We take first steps into new environments, maybe learn new words and start speaking them more often. Today, it hit me, where can i go? what do i do from here? but then i remembered the famous words of hayley williams ''dont ask me where i'll go cos frankly i dont know and i dont give a shit.'' So im still taking my first steps, talking my new words and still have no clue as to what im here for.

maybe im just here for entertainment

Marina

pride of england

i really do love the footballers of england but two planes landed in england today, one carrying 23 overpaid, under achieving, footballers with ego's to match their wallets, and the other, seven men who's coffins were draped in the union jack, who died for this country. These are the real heroes we should be supporting, these men and women who gave their lives so we can live in a free world. THESE ARE THE PRIDE OF ENGLAND.

praying for the families of those who died and for england to step up their game

Marina

emotions

Tonight i prayed, for you, friends, family, my grandad and me. Im scared, scared to grow up, scared to lose things. I know fear, but only the fear that comes from watching a scary film or seeing a spider. I know love, but only the love for a brother, parent or friend, for i believe love is only real when mutual, till then its fantasy. Ive known joy, pain, friendship, romance, 'butterflies', hurt, but the one thing i want to learn, need to learn is to live, so how can you live when theres nobody to love?

hoping to get someone

Marina

confessions

im imperfect, im prone to making bad decisions but never once have i made a wrong decision, as i never regret anything so my decisions are neither good nor bad. My decisions are just how you judge them, if i picked chocolate instead of strawberry you may say 'well, why not strawberry?' because it is your taste to say that, so my decisions are my tastes, my opinions, so you really cant rule them as wrong, because its what is right for you. Selfish as i sound but my decision is my decision, my opinion is my opinion and your 'right' judgement call may seem 'bad' to me. Vis versa. Bitch.

revising for my textiles exam

Marina

bus stop

had a really good day today with my friends, went to the cinema for that 'date' thing i was telling you about and it went alright i suppose, but i reckon we'll just remain friends because well, he doesnt seem that interested and im not about to waste my time. Anyway the funniest thing EVER happened today, my best friend Leanne walked into a bus stop :') myself, Danny and Jacob were in stitches! Was too good, ahh but i gotta' love her, shes a great pal.

sat watching tokyo drift

Marina

james corden

hilarious, beautifully witty, amusing, entertaining, just an ordinary bloke.. a few descriptive words for you. When i watched Gavin and stacey, i thought it couldnt get any better! Now im watching James Corden's world cup and i gotta' admit, he's a genious! Who wouldnt want to see our 'smithy' playing golf with Steven Gerrard? and who wouldnt want to see him collaborating with Dizzee Rascal on their NUMBER ONE hit 'shout' for england world cup?! ahhhh could watch him all day. But anyway yes, moving on, today ive done absolutely nothing, im taking advantage of these 14 weeks off and doing nothing! its brilliant!

sitting around doing nothing

Marina

that feeling

you know when you read old cards and letters, you get that weird tingley feeling in your head? well i do. Sounds strange but that feeling i get, i wish i could make it last forever. Honestly, i wish i could get that feeling from everything, id be one happy girl. I bet i sound really cheesy but i'm off on a date on wednesday with my friend of 5 years. I thought i wouldn't be nervous or anything, but i am. I don't want to ruin our friendship at all, so fingerscrossed. Tell you what its my bestfriends Danny and Leanne, who are also a couple for like zonks have set me up with him because they think we 'suit'. I trust their opinion so im going to do it but lets hope that i get that same feeling i get when i read old cards and letters, if so, id be with him everyday.

sat on my bed with my fingers intertwined

Marina

skydive

just remembered i still need to raise lots of money for my skydive, ugh, its a pain in the arse cos british people are soo eager to contribute... NAAAT! although i have raised nearly 70 squid so its a start. so if anyone has any ideas on money raising, do tell!

busking for some cash

Marina

calorific

today i found out one of my best friends has anorexia. which made me think, should i have payed more attention? As i knew she was a skinny girl but i thought it was because shes a ballet dancer, but when people say the truth is ugly; their correct. My first initial thought was 'how can a person not eat?!' but then again its all this craze about being size -19264789634. okay, i exaggerated but still how could anyone be happy stick thin? its just not healthy. Im always going to be there for my friend, i mean, what else can i do? shove a snickers down her throat?! i wish. On the up side of things i did go into Leeds today to get my party in the park ticket, tell you what, it best be worth the friggin' wait, my feet killed after queueing! But it just goes to show us Brits dont want to miss out on FREE festival tickets ;) Personally i cannot wait for PITP, here are some reasons why:

- its free.

- live music from pixie lott, dizzie rascal, JLS, ect ect.
- its in the summer.

- chance to meet fitties.
- chance to get drunk.

- chance to make some good memories with friends.

and there you have it folks, end of a mixed emotion day.

on the sofa with my feet up

Marina

sunshine

well since the weathers picking up here in England, i thought i'd go out in the garden with the bulldog and my mum and dad, and obviously the laptop ;) otherwise i couldnt write this blog could I? As im sitting out here, im thinking of how precious life is, and that we should treasure it since we have it and we live in the moment so take opportunities as they come, as you never might get the chance again, trust me, ive had to learn the hard way so dont make the same mistakes as me.

in my thought bubble in the garden

Marina

greys day

i have a complete obsession with greys anatomy, ever since the first episode, 6 seasons later im even more obsessed, i just love mcsteamy and mcdreamy too much to switch to any other program :') so yeah i keep watching episode 23 and 24 from series 6 over and over again, makes me cry like mad but i love the quotes.

''love or hate, coward or hero, fight or give-in, live or die?''

Marina

what a nightmare

its exam time in my life and as much as id like to say im coping.. well im not. Too much work, so little time. Its exhausing, seriously, if theres anyone out there that can master the GCSE revision plan then please, feel free to tell me your secrets. Avoidance is like a cold; you get it every year in winter, get rid of it and then the next year it sneaks up on you and bites you in the ass. So yeah im doing my very best to not avoid any coursework but everytime i stare at the looming piles of paper the saying 'fuck it' comes to mind.

buried in a mountain of work

Marina

mraz time

HELLO PEOPLE OF THE BLOGGING WORLD

Today i'm off to the cinema's with the pals, sex and the city 2 is on the cards but first I must make the reflection in the mirror look decent, i shall do this while listening to 'wordplay' by jason mraz (its on repeat) hehehe. Anyways before i bore people to death, i shall go now.

Marina

P.S. dont miss me too much.