angry opinion

i find that people who are fat and say ''eww im really fat'' to their friends, that they are obviously digging for compliments..

..but then theirs people who are size -17616726 and say ''eww im really fat'' and im like get some fucking real problems you skinny bitch.


I DONT LIKE PEOPLE THAT GO ON ABOUT THEIR WEIGHT BECAUSE THEY CAN ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

you made yourself that way so stop fucking complaining. Your own bloody fault.

first day back

So yeah today was first day back to college, after half term and like any other college day, i did nothing very constructive.

Just incase you didnt know, i took 4 subjects at college, one being media studies, which was probably one of the best and worst decisions of my life.

Best? because i have the funniest media buddies and literally can never stop laughing in lessons, one of our teachers has dubbed us the ''stitch and bitch'' corner cos all we do is chat and make fools of ourselves.

Worst? because my media theory teacher is out to get me and i can never keep up with deadlines cos theres too much fucking work!

.....

Moving on, after college today i had to do some very important filming for my media project, i work with my very sexy friend Jake Embling who also has a blog called www.jembers.blogspot.com (click to go to it) and basically we used our friend Izzie to be the model for the project.

Bullet points of what actually went on during filming:

- Izzie got changed outside. On a golf course. In minus freezing temperatures.(Also bear in mind dog walkers and the odd golf course workers trying to sneak a peek at izzies bod. Perves.)

- It was cold.

- kept ''vlogging'' through-out the whole shoot but the videos are too crap quality to even bother uploading, my video thingy must have gone dodgy.

- Jake screaming because he stepped through mud and puddles.

- Jake borrowing my socks.

- Successful filming overall!



line of today. ''THATS A FUCKING RAP''



p.s. for those that read my last blog; im still alive.

holi-daze

didnt realise how fast half term would go by, i mean, i said to myself ''give yourself a few days to chill out, cos you deserve it! ..and then get on with your work for the remainder of the week'' okay. Here's the problem, i gave myself one too many days to chill out and here i am now, on the day before i go back to college with shitloads of unfinished work.

I can see the headlines for tomorrow, ''TEENAGE GIRL, BRUTALLY MURDERED BY TEACHERS''


So if i dont post a blog within the next three days, assume im dead.

cutest thing ever

what do you want to be?

Truth be told, i want to be me. Ambition is exciting but to me, the thrill of experiencing life and not giving a crap about the future is pretty exciting. The thrill of living off of a few quid a day, going to parties and making mistakes with friends, being out on the beach burning because you forgot suncream, dropping an ice-cream on the floor then going to get another and watch that one go to the floor and join the other. Sitting with friends on holiday with a guitar singing Jason Mraz, getting dunked in a pool, throwing snowballs, drinking a cup of tea so sweet you cringe. Hugging somebody warm when your cold, talking on the phone for hours, reading harry potter books. The relief and proudness you get when you've cleaned your bedroom, the first sip of a chocolate cream frappucino, seeing someone you havent in a while, going to a new country, taking pictures of the most random things, holding your childhood teddy bear. Having a bad hair day, breaking down into tears, thinking about a person thats perished, thinking about life in general, trying to predict what might happen in the future. Unfortunatley, we all dont have a crystal ball.

be the change

imagination

for once, i wish people would stop thinking about the things they dont have and think about the things they do have. Were all selfish because we've grown up in a selfish world, but god gave free will and its your choice to whether you want to be selfish with it or react against it. Nothing is made to last, so cherish it. Stop yearning things that are materialistic and start yearning ambition, success, love and the future. Be happy with the things you have, be happy with your life, and if your not happy, change it! Free will remember? Its all down to you. Nobody else.

So respect, thrive, imagine and for god sake, live your fucking life!

trevor rabin out did himself with this beautiful masterpiece

Havent been on my blog for a while now, and since i love to write i got a diary and now its full to the brim, because of current climate the average diary now costs around 3 quid, thats if you want a decent one! I thought thats too much money to waste, so i did the switch and moved back to my blog, thank god i didnt delete it as that would be terrible! feels good to be home.. :)

welcome to my world

t-shirt on, check. Hair tied up, check. contacts out and glasses on, check. make-up off, check. Right, Im ready.
Sometimes i think about the bigger picture. I mean sitting in my big bedroom in my big house surrounded by expensive things seems so. Just so? I lack the word. Probably because no word has been invented yet to finish that sentence. Hopefully by the end of this 11.28pm (pour my heart out but manage to write loads of crap) piece, i will have thought of it.
Okay, so we listen to inspirational music and read inspirational quotes in the hope of actually becoming something, someone. Somebody. Anybody? Just to become or be someone that isnt yourself seems so amazing does it? But yet we wish for somebody elses life and forget the little things. Thats what im doing. Forgetting the little things.. Saying a sentence and watch my brother snap out a witty comment. Laugh till my belly aches at alan carr. Hugging my mum. Patting my dad's bald head on a morning and calling him ''Lord Farquaad''. Seeing the look on my mentally disabled but yet my beautifully articulated brothers face when he see's he's got Call of duty:Black opps for christmas. Staring at pictures? oh how i waste my time looking at pictures. But are we looking at something and remembering good things or just churning up bad things from the past? Okay, im going too deep now but seriously. Little things like that make the bad things seem irevicable. Totally unimportant. Merely a whisper a mile away from earshot. So how is it that I (including you and every other person in this world) have come to the conclusion that i still long to be somebody else? I mean what i wouldnt give to have angelina Jolie's lips or cheryl coles figure but truth is, Angelina Jolie was probably bullied for having big lips at school and now everyone loves her for them! And well cheryl was probably fat. Everyones fat at some point. Just sods law. Which brings me to another conclusion, anything that happens to you in school, highschool, college or whatever institution you attend, you will probably benefit from it later. I think..